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seriously.
sometimes i wonder.
what am i good at.

i can do alot of things. sure.
but what do i specialize at? what do i excel in?

everyone can do many many stuff. eat sleep talk walk
but they specialize in SOMETHING. and they know it.

a blind might not be able to see. but he might excel in singing
a deaf might not be able to hear. but he might excel in drawing.

i can see, i can hear, i can walk. i'm perfectly normal

yet.
i spend so many years trying out so many crap.
e.g. playing the piano.
for years.
i don't excel in it. in fact, i suck at it. i don't love doing it. i'm just doing it for the sake of going for lessons every week.
i don't hate it.
i just don't feel any passion towards it.
as long as i rmb

i play table tennis.
i don't excel. in fact, i suck at it too
i just play. cause it's something i can do w/o feeling stressed and pressured from my daily life.

yeah. what do i have passion for and excel at doing?
SLACKING duh.
if that can ever be considered a passion

i'm just a wastrel. face it.